I haven't  updated in a while since I started working. Life has been boring yet stable to some extend. I think my writing skill has gone down since I am no longer in school. I miss college but I love the feeling of making money and living on my own. Believe or not, being in the working force does make you feel old. I do not go out anymore, simply because there isnt much life going on outside work here. I miss Shanghai not only because it's home, but it's the place where I feel deeply attached to, a place makes me feel alive. It feesl like a energy and motivation source to me.

So people might say why don't you go back. Reality is reality, I am a grown up, can't always let emotion determine my behavīor. I have to think through and think about the consequences. So here I am, by myself, trying to work hard and earn myself a decent life and bright future. So hope is what keeps me going. I have always been taught that I have to earn my life not to have it granted by anyone. I dispise those rich and spoiled kids because they are only living in the shadow of their parents. I used to be jealous of them when I was younger but not anymore. They are pathetic too, in a way.

Life is still going, things are still happening. I am still holding on to my dreams.